The other reality of this situation is I go broke every time we have Christmas, spring, or summer breaks. Times of the year that should be relaxing and meaningful put my stomach in a knot. The months that I work all the hours available and receive a decent paycheck...goes to recovery of the months that I couldn't pay all of our bills or repair my car or buy toilet paper. Every summer I have to apply for food stamps...and I qualify! My kids get free meals at school. I have had to find local agencies to help me pay my rent. Now I am on public housing. The rent includes utilities and appliances. Sometimes I can't pay that, either. I do not qualify for unemployment during the summer (a union/school/state controversy that is in debate). I am under employed. (a very uncomfortable and sometimes depressing situation)
This job was GREAT as a supplemental income when I first started. But since then...separation and divorce has made this my primary income and the small alimony (which ended last December :| ) and child support check is my supplement (when he was working).
Another reality of this situation is inequality among co-workers, a division between licensed staff (teachers and administrators) and classified staff (Educational assistants and all other support personnel). Every year we have to prove our competence to teach and interact with children. Our ideas and suggestions are often dismissed or overlooked. We have a diverse range of training and skills that are barely utilized. When we do shine...people are often surprised or amazed. Sometimes, even offended. Unfortunately, this rift spills over into the community. Parents' (although, some parents are very aware and supportive!) perception of what an EA does for their children is very inaccurate. Often EA's are appreciated for the relief we give to other staff...but rarely do I feel valued for my contributions and knowledge base.
Now another school year is beginning. School funding is sketchy and the district has already cut days, programs, and positions. Our out-of-pocket insurance premiums are doubling while the benefits are shrinking. This year (I found out last week) I will be working 3 hours at the elementary school and 4 hours at the Post High (a young adult life skills center). Probably commuting on my lunch break (fortunately its a small town and that won't be too terrible). But I wrestle with the question: Is the turmoil of this job becoming too great to enjoy the reward of teaching and helping students?
